28 Days {Home}

It really does feel like only yesterday, but it isn't it has been 28 days since Mum passed away. 

28 days we have been back in Perth trying to find a new 'normal'.

Not much has really happened over the last month other than trying to get through everyday and watching/listening/loving my Dad to help him with this new 'normal'.

The smalls have been in school since we arrived in Perth and thankfully have settled well into yet another school, along with everything else that has happened. They have found a new routine, are enjoying going to school with their cousins, they have had invitations to birthday parties and soon a a school excursion.  All firsts for my two homeschooled small people. I have even remembered to re enroll them both for SIDE next year.

We as a family have managed to catch up with people we haven't seen in ages, to get newborn snuggles with fresh babies, to give belly rubs to those that are pregnant and to celebrate birthdays with those close to us. They have all be nice and welcomed distractions.

Perth will be 'home' until just before Christmas when we all {my whole family} are heading south for our Christmas.  A place away from where we would normally celebrate Christmas, somewhere to remember but to make new memories and hopefully find some 'fun' for the small people.  After that the plan is sometime in the southwest with friends and family and then come the end February we are off to Lombok for a week 'away from it all'.

That is about as far as our plans go for the minute but it is nice to know that at the beginning 2014 we will be here for some important events that are coming up for family & close friends.


One day at a time, trying to find some positives within each day.

Saying Goodbye is always hard {Home}

Just after 5pm on Sunday the 3rd of November my life changed forever, my Mum the only one I have passed away suddenly.  How a day can change your life, it can change your plans, the way that you think and your outlook on the world!!

The last two weeks have been a massive blur and it is hard to believe that this is all real, that this has happened to my Mum; to Dad; to all of us. I am extremely thankful for all of the love & support that everyone has shown during this terrible time.

I'm going to add what I read at Mum's funeral here, as a record for me & my small people {who did so well at her viewing and funeral saying goodbye to their Nan}.

It’s hard to share what’s hidden inside, it’s hard to articulate and find words for a person who was always supposed to be here.  Mum was the person who taught me everything she knew, who made me who I am today.  It doesn’t feel right to have everyone who meant something in her life to be here now without her.

I keep wishing this was all a dream but sadly it is real and we’re all here, all of us to remember the impact she had on our lives. 

There has been much reflection this past week and remembering many memories, both good and bad.  I will remember the weekends away in Pemberton in my teen years exploring & chatting.  The late night drives home from work, racing up the hills & rolling down them.  The monthly visits she made with Dad to Mundaring markets to brighten my long days.  Mum meeting me at the bakery in Mundaring for a morning coffee on my veggie shopping days.  The phone calls of few & far between and I will forever cherish the overnight visit you recently made to us up north.  Just talking, walking & being.  Our last hug not long enough but most certainly remembered.

I will remember the smile she shared daily; the love she showed for people she meet; the strength that she showed even when she might be hurting herself; her compassion and the light she shone so brightly.

Mum would want us all to remember the joy she found in her life, everyday; and the love that she had for my Dad & her family everyday of that life. There is something that is broken and I’m not sure it will ever be fixed.

Mum you’ve left a lasting impression on me and a gapping hole in my life.  I love you with everything that I am and will miss you just as much.

Remember to hug your loved ones close & remember to life each day like it could be your last.  54 years Mum was on this earth and I treasure the 34 years I had my Mum here with me and I was sure she would be here for many many more.

xxxx